in spite of logic

you ever do something you know you shouldn’t be doing?

i’m currently playing through Final Fantasy VII Rebirth,
a game with over a hundred hours of content inside,
but also holding the capability to be finished in under 30 hours.

my reason for playing this game is because i have a concert
for the FFVII Rebirth Orchestra this saturday the 17th
wherein spoilers for the game will be shown.

therefore, i need to complete the game as fast as possible
to make sure that my playing experience remains spoiler-free.

that being said, i have been undertaking some annoying
yet intriguing distractions along the way in the game.

this is the part of the post where i would normally
summon some scheme of logic that combats these impulsive desires,
and yet today.. i find myself at a loss.

in general, i would say that these situations
exist in spite of logic, driven largely by emotion,
but serve a unique, if subversive, purpose of their own.

i spent nearly an hour doing an optional fight for meagre rewards
save bragging rights and the feeling of triumph.
and i am now, plainly, an hour behind schedule.

i guess in moments like these,
despite not being closer to the original goal,

i take solace in the fact that the time i spend enjoying myself
is time not wasted at all.

thanks for reading today’s post.
i can do this.. i can do this..