coping vs acknowledging

are you the kind of person who likes
to rip the bandaid off when it comes to
the bad news? or do you cope a little bit?

coping is a mechanism where you act like
things are better than they are because
to acknowledge that they aren’t would do
greater mental damage to you than you can
sustain at that given moment.

usually, when you cope, the longer you’ve
been coping, the worse it is when you rip
the bandaid off. so i try to not cope.

when someone tries coping for me or pitying
me for when i fuck something up, it kind of
feels good because i feel a little less like
i’m being blamed for a thing, but also it
feels like bullshit because if i’m told that
something is “easy” and i get it wrong,
i don’t feel good for them telling me it’s okay.
i feel bad because it’s easy and i still got it wrong.

i’m not saying one strategy is better than the other.
but i’m definitely a bandaid ripper.

anyway.

thanks for reading today’s post.
i AM gonna let it get to me..